Gym Pains

Okay, so if you have not gone to the gym in two weeks. When you go back take it easy. I was on vacation for two weeks and did not do my regular daily gym routine. Those of you who know me, know that I go to the gym 5 or 6 days a week. So not going for two weeks is a long time.

I went back tonite and I thought I was going to die. My muscles hurt after running 20 minutes. I normally go 30 minutes without even blinking. Tonite I was pushing myself to do 20. I was getting cramps. It was horrible.

I tired jogging while I was out in the mid-west. Jogging in 20 degree weather sucks. It is so cold you can hardly breathe. I thought my lungs were going to colapse. I will never do that again.

Got to get my butt back in shape. I have a friends wedding coming up in June and I am one of the bridesmaids. Need to look hot in my dress. But not hotter than the bride of course, it's her day. She already threatened to put us all in turtle necks! LOL!

Horoscope

CANCER Great Kisser. Very high sex appeal. Great in bed. Most horny.And TOO damn Sexy..

PISCES Caring. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. Extremely weird but in a good way.

LIBRA Very gentle. Nice. Love is one of a kind. Silly and fun! Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! FUCKINGGREAT in bed.

CAPRICORN Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in bed...EVERY PERFORMANCE!!!!

AQUARIUS Trustworthy. Sexy. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Extremly energetic.an amazing kisser! fucking great in bed, the BEST lovers.

ARIES Outgoing. Spontanious. Not one to fuck with. Fighter. Have own unique sexiness. Unpredictable. Erotic. Funny. Addictive. Take you on trips to the moon in bed.

TAURUS Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremly outgoing. Outstanding kisser. Sexual as fuck.

LEO Great talker. Sexy. Always Horny. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at fucking. Great kisser.

VIRGO Dominant in relationships. Sexy. Horny. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Loud. Caring. Smart

SCORPIO EXTREMELY sexy. Talkative. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. Freak in bed. GREAT kisser. Not one to mess with. Always get what they want.

SAGITTARIUS Spontanious. Horny. High sex appeal. Rare to find. Good when found. Loves being in long relationships.

GEMINI Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in bed. Lover not a fighter but will still punch your lights Out. Trustworthy.

Open Wounds

Time eventually heals all wounds. The terrible part is waiting for time to go by. Every excrushiating second that goes by and you think about him and what he has done to you and how much you hate him for it, but you still have love for him and it makes it all that much worse. Only the ones you love can hurt you this much. Listen to your head, not your heart. Your heart always gets you hurt, your head always keeps you safe. Safeguard your heart. Control your emotions, don't reveal all! My emotions always get the best of me ~ and always get me hurt.

Someday I will find someone who makes me feel the way he did (or better), but they will appreciate me and not lie and try to deceive me. I find the truth always comes out in time. His truth is a dark and shady one, which I was fortunate enough to come across. It only makes it that much easier to get over him knowing about all the lies and deception. When I have those weak moments where I want to call him so I can hear his voice, I read my blogs on My Space and that moment quickly passes and that feeling of missing him, quickly fades. If he is not careful and does not change his ways, he may find himself old and alone like his father. I have known him for over 11 years and have seen how many of his relationships ended and the fucked up shit he pulled. (including ours) Then he always tried to play the victim, the poor me card. This time I thought he had grown up and matured. He proved me wrong, nothing has changed. He is the same person he was 8 years ago when he broke my heart.

I feel for the next woman who crosses his path and falls into the trap. Or maybe she will be the lucky one who breaks his heart for once. I think he needs a dose of his own medicine, before he will change his ways. I may sound very bitter towards him, but I really do wish the best for him. I do still love him, even though I shouldn't. Someday he may realize all of his wrongs and it will probably eat him a live. Hopefully, he can find the strength to change and be happy!

REMEMBER- Why lie when the truth will work just as well. The truth has a way of coming out in the end!

Nervous Breakthrough

Sometimes somebody can bring you down so far, below anywhere you've gone. So much happens so fast feels like you can't take the pain. There's no going back. Thanks to you I had a nervous breakthrough. It's time to recognize the fact that all the best things make you nervous, scared, loved, and hold you in anticipation. Thanks to you I'm gonna break through. I can finally let you go. You were my first love, but you wont be my last. You hold no power over me anymore. I have broken through your lies and deception ~ now I see who you truely are! No tears for you.